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Was it worth it: A reflection piece.

It’s been a while since I’ve done a reflection piece. I’m happy with my update post (I based the design off of developer patch notes) but it’s not enough. I’ve worked hard to free myself from my shackles and be a better person and for the most part I have. Yet I am still living dual lives. I thought over time the “Old Mike” and the “New Mike” would merge yet that hasn’t been the case. It turns out however far I run, life always seems to have different plans.

I find success only to have it ripped away from me over and over again. My world has and I suppose will always be in a state of chaos. It’s by no lack of effort on my part but rather always a series of unfortunate events. The straw that broke the camels back was when I had a contract with my dream company. Most of my life has built towards this moment, reaching the finish line. I saw the good in the business world and truly believed that I had finally made it, only to be cut down by the political nature of Corporate America. And I am at a loss. I pick myself up and have nowhere to go.

And here I am, split between being honest and being correct. My world has been a firm handshake, a quick smile, and language so polished that it’ll make your ears bleed. And I’m tired of it. With over 300 contacts on LinkedIn, it might be time to hang up the towel. What I’ve built has become ash and I feel nothing. The money is nice but at the end of the day, it’s an obsession not worth having. I am tired of being used as a tool, or worse, a weapon. I learned as much as I could so that I could help others yet that same intelligence has only ever brought misery. The more I learn, the more I wish I didn’t know. Americans bathe in ignorance and it’s tough to see.

During my search, someone I trusted introduced me to Amway disguised under the pretense of “Alticor”. I went through the process and saw how some choose to make their money. An honest answer is it made me feel dirty, so I walked away. Is this the right answer, I can’t really say. The business model is sound and works for those with enough motivation, yet the reverse pyramid is still a pyramid. And at the end of the day, I must follow my heart. Corny, yes, but the truth nonetheless.

I don’t know who to trust anymore and it’s a damn shame. I love my friends and I love myself and for me that’s enough. It’s when I’ve put my faith in my professional network is when I’ve been hurt. Interesting to say the least.

This said, I am done hiding. It’s time to find just what all I am capable of. I am finally doing what I want and while I sacrifice the security of Corporate America, I don’t want to die in a cubicle. I thought I could waltz into an organization and change the world, yet I realize that change starts at the grassroots. My whole goal with writing and now photography has been to give myself a voice. It’s liberating to talk and have others listen. Now that I have, I want to focus on what I care about and not worry so much about reputation. So, cheers. Let’s build something together, it’s time I finally got my priorities straight.


A late night musing and I have to say, it felt great. I’ve been feeling anxious since graduation trying to find my place in the world but I came to realize that it has always been the route of the entrepreneur. What that will look, God only knows but in my never-ending pursuit of happiness, this is worth pursuing. Thanks for all your support throughout the years, it has meant the world to me. As I continue to grow, may you grow along with me and if I can inspire just one person from the work I do, then I’ll have done my job.

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Movie Spotlight: Inside Out

This week is very content heavy but I honestly just felt like writing and it sure beats doing homework for my summer classes.So what better way to start (or finish) your Saturday than with a movie recommendation! Inside Out is a fantastic movie and not just for kids, believe it or not (thank you Pixar!). In fact, if you have kids, I would advise caution with this movie as it is one of the saddest movies I’ve watched in recent years, and even though I’m a guy and guys don’t cry, I got choked up multiple times throughout the film. Truth be told, I was dragged to this movie because I thought it was going to be a kids movie! The plot centers around an 11 year old girl, Riley, who moves to San Francisco¬†and chronicles her experience adjusting to school and life in general. The movie goes back and forth between Riley and her 5 main emotions represented as cute little people inside her head: Joy, Anger, Fear, Disgust, and Sadness. The writers managed to envision a world inside Riley’s head and shows the brain as both a machine and a vibrant wonderland of thought and emotion. The world is fully realized and ever structure inside the mind is well fleshed out in what is perhaps the most fun interpretation of the human brain. Move aside, anatomy books, just have your students watch inside out instead. So there you have it, a brief rundown of inside out. I don’t want to go into too much detail in case you still haven’t seen it, but I would definitely give it the thumbs up. One of the best movies I’ve seen in recent years.

Final Verdict: 10/10

One of the best movies I’ve seen, beautifully written and executed, I could not find a flaw even if I tried.

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